Feeling Stuck

I keep thinking of all the things I want to accomplish.  From stupid little things like building my Lego sets to bigger things like sorting though all my stuff to organizing and weed through everything.  I also want to find my inventory of stuff I have made to sell it off.

The problem is, I can’t move.  If i drop something, it stays dropped until I ask someone to pick it up.  If there is something out of reach of my bed, it stays out of reach until so m eone can reach it for me. I think those around me are getting sick of me asking for stuff and I know I am sick of asking.

So I feel stuck; stuck in my bed; stuck not getting anything done; stuck dependant on others for every little thing.  Worst of all I feel stuck in my room alone.  I don’t go anywhere but dialysis and I dont see any outside of my family.  I only see them when I-ve summoned them to help me.

Disability sucks; take care of yourself.